motivatejulee

Okay so it has been 4 months since I have made a blog or post or anything. I suppose I have been avoiding BuddySlim because I did not want to commit to excersizing again. not like it is hard to commit, but I suppose we all have a bit of lazy in ourselves all the time. So after I stopped using BS in July, I got pregnant in August and I have been feeling like crap up until now. The baby has been kicking my butt. I cant eat much of anything without it making me sick. I have a tummy that is growing now, being 14 weeks pregnant. I tried to use our new eliptical machine 3 times a week when I first found out I was pregnant, but I got so tired of dragging out the thing because it is so heavy and when I get on it, the darn thing squeaks like it is dying! Maybe thats why we got it for 300 instead of the regular 899.

It wakes my daughter up when I work out while she naps. Crap!!! What should I do???  I can see myself and my thighs and waist starting to expand a little… not in a good way… and I don;t like where that is headed. Someone please give me advice. I do so need this site again to help me. All my old BS friends! Help!!! New ones too!!!

I do nothing but run… or should I say jog. I seem to think that if I run, I have my workout for the day. But what does jogging do? It works the few muscles in your legs. It does not stretch your tendons… it does not lengthen your muscles… it does not work your arms. I am not bashing on running, but it shouldn’t be the only thing I do.

Soooo…. I am going to but a Turbo Jam dvd. My buddyblogger Lisa does it, and she sweard by it. She is new too, but if she can do it just starting out, then I can do it almost 3 weeks into my journey.

Today, Yes, I ran.  I ran mymile in 10:14! YAYAYAYAYAYYY! I have shaved almost 40 to 50 seconds in 3 weeks! I would love to run a mile in under 9 minutes by the end of fall… so when winter begins, I have a grip on myself and what I am capable of. Winter can do so much wonderful things, but also bad things. You could put the pounds on, eat all the time because it is cold outside… But one could also go on nice winter walks or jogs without the sunshine beating down on ya.

My money is tight right now. But I will find the extra cash flow to buy it and work out in a different way when little miss Alee takes her nap.

My father-in-law whatched my baby while I ran. But I went at 9:40. TOOO HOT!

Thats all I gotta say, if anyone cares to hear. Get running out of my head so much! Help me!

Today I went running at 8:41 am. I wanted to use an actual watch so I could have a second hand. My mom let me borrow hers, since I went to her house for a while to visit and watch my niece.

I began running with the sun to my back. I did great! On my way back finishing up my mile, I could tell I only had about a 1/4 mile left. I tried to push myself and run harder… bad idea!!! The moment I gained pace and got a bit faster, a piercing pain grabbed under my rib, and made me stop. I was only 3 blocks from finishing my mile, but it made me bummed. The pain was so bad, I could barely breathe.

I tried to remember Kerstin’s advice and not push myself harder than I can go, because it will hurt me, and my body knows what it can and cannot do. But I tried to motivate myself, and it backfired. I was told by my friend who is a real runner at heart, that I need to stretch my abs before I run. Was it my abs or my diaphragm? I think it was my diaphragm… no muscles in my abs hurt.

The lunges I did 2 days ago are finally wearing off and the pain is trying to subside. It is intense but good! And lunges are not too hard to do.

Now I have incorporated jogging, lunges, and some deep stretching into my lifestyle change, along with eating healthier. It is all about baby steps!

Sooooo…. it has been 3 days since I have ran or intentionally worked out. I have mowed with a puch mower the day after I ran… finished my huge rock garden project the next day…. and served a huge party at my job in an italial resturaunt yesterday that KICKED MY BUTT. And yesterday I worked more on my rock garden. I can defilately feel it today in my muscles and legs.

I have not ran for a few days, or worked out a lot, because I have been frustrated that I have no one to watch my 2 year old that is responsible. BUT I am forever taking Chelley’s advice, and I am going to incorporate my toddler onto my workouts.

Today while the baby was asleep and there was a responsible set of eyes watching over her, I just got on a pair of running shorts and grabbed a bottle of water and got my sheepdog Annie, and went running! Or jogging, or walgging (walking/running because I am not that fast towards the last 1/4 mile and it seems like I was running about as fast as I could walk.) I ran the first 1/4 mile great! Then the second 1/4 mile was hard. BUT!!! The third 1/4 mile was a second wind for me and I enjoyed it! But the last 1/4 mile was hard =  NOT because I was out of breath or because my muscles felt fatigued… but because I begin to get frustrated that I am not a lot faster than the time before. I had my phone turned on to STOPWATCH, and when I came around the corner and only had 1/4 mile to go, i think I bumped the end button on my phone. I looked at it at 3/4 of a like, and i was at 8:30… that is when I think i hit the off button

After I finished the last 1/4 mile by pushing myself very hard & making my strides longer and kicking up my feet towards my tooshie… I looked at my phone when I was done. NO TIME! PHONE GOT SHUT OFF! But I believe I made better time.

Here is a great story though! Last time I ran and blogged about how I was only three seconds quicker… I forgot that I had hit the button on the stopwatch to begin timing, but I took exactly 10 seconds to cross the street and put the phone in my bra before I started running. I told myself not to forget to take off 10 seconds from my running time. BUT I FORGOT! Soooo I did run my mile 13 seconds better! YESSSS!

So I think iran this mile about the same, maybe 2 seconds better So if I had to guess, I ran it in 10:38 ????  When I got home, I hovvvvvered infront of the air conditioner in my bra and panties cuz it was so hot outside! 95 I think.

Annie is one of the best running dogs I have. Maybe better than Harley. Yep, I got 5 dogs. All can go with me, But I cant run with my old jack russel/chiwwwawa cross. He would die.

I cooled off and went to the front yard and did lunges all the way to the back dogrun. That is 100 feet or a bit more. I did it slow without cheating.

Well, I am going to record now my inches I have lost! It isnt huge, but its great for me!

Thighs were 24”.    Now: 23 1/2

Stomach was 36”.   Now: 35 1/2

 Is 1/2 an inch something to be excited about???  I want to be! Well, I have to go shower and get ready to work on my feet for 7 hours serving! I am so happy!

Dressing room mirrors are not very kind I have noticed. I went to the store today to get some new running shorts, and when I was trying on the shorts, the mirror was showing me my whole body! I do not have a whole mirror in my house, so the dressing room mirrors do not lie. But the reflection was a bit better because I knew I was doing something on changing myself.

Yesterday, I went on a trip to the college with my friend, Emily. She does a spinning class at the college here in my city. I asked her to go running with me, but she said she does not run. It wasnt a cop out, believe it or not. When I got her to run with me, she couldn’t do it well atall. And not because she is big or anything… she is just not built to jog or run. Her body is just not built for running! I Went to a spinning class with her last monday, and she kicked butt at it, but when I asked her to run, she could do it for 20 seconds and it was over. Her strength does not lie in that kind of motion. I learned that not all people can jog. I suppose I just wanted to let someone know that

Today I was going to jog at 8 am with my friend, Kami. But she wanted to sleep in so I said I would wait until 7 pm tonight to go jogging. But when it came time to go, she couldn’t. So instead of just putting it off until tomorrow, I hopped in my car and drove a 1/2 mile away from my house and a 1/2 mile back. So i knew exactly how far I could run to equal one mile back to my house. It was easy for me to run! But I could only knock off 3 seconds from my time. 10:52. I am going to take kahmaperrys advice and take a light jog/ walk to warm up before I do my mile run. I want better results and I believe this will give me a better time.

As for my diet, I need to go shopping! Ahhhh! I need groceries and I hate going to the grocery store because I spend money that I could use to pay bills or buy dog food I have all my bills paid, but I seem to put myself last in everything. Groceries should be one of the first things I buy, but it always becomes the last. Ah screw it! I am going to the grocery store tomorrow and load up on the good healthy stuff. I wish I had some amazing thing to say, but I guess the only amazing thing I have to say is this: I AM 3 SECONDS QUICKER!

So I went running today, despite aunt flo so rudely visiting me the day before. But as I am trying not to do, she was not going to be my excuse on why I could not run or work out. So this morning, I made it to the track at 9 am, and stretched, then I had my little 13 year old friend, Brittany, start the stopwatch on my phone when I began running. It was early, and I did not seem to have the momentum I had at 6 pm on july 4th. I believe it was because I had been going all day long and I was fully awake.

Wellp… I did it! I ran another mile! AND MY THROAT DID NOT CONSTRICT AT ALL! Kerstina is sooo right about that. I seemed to think it would always be impossible to breathe. Nope!

The only thing that nearly killed me was on my last lap, under my right lung was on fire! It happens most of the time when I run, but not like this…    My sister told me it was because I did not have enough water in my system. But I was drinking a lot of water… so what is it? Does anyone know? It hurt so bad that I could not push myself hard the last lap like I did the first time. My time this second try was 10:55 exactly. Last time it was a bit over 11 minutes. Slow going but baby steps is the only way to go, I have learned from you guys. Chelley says “We did not put this weight on overnight… it won’t come off overnight either.” So I cannot expect my time to go from 11 minutes to 8 minutes in 3 days. Shaving a couple seconds off one mile is better than nothing!

My husband came home on Sunday night, and yesterday, I took Chelley’s advice again, and approached him in a nice manner. I said “I would love to go on a walk with you and our boys (by boys I mean our three  dogs out back in the huuuuuge dogrun… 2 border collies and a chocolate lab we raised from pups). Maybe we can walk in the evening so it wont be sooo hot. Wanna go?”   He said “yeah, I guess so.”  YAYYYY!

So 6:30 rolled around and it was cool, so I asked him to go get the leashes, and he got all three dogs, Rowdie  Bongo  and Harley, and we got our little girl, Alee, in her stroller, and we walked down to the animal shelter at the end of the road, then back. It was no huge walk, maybe a 1/2 mile total, but we had a good time!   

And believe it or not, MY HUSBAND RAN ALL THE WAY BACK! He ran with Harley and Rowdie, our two fast border collies. I have never seen him run! And he was good! I hope everyone was happy to hear this… because of my blog a couple days ago about being needy and how my man never wants to go work out… he did! Oh boy he did! Praise God!

Well, there is my triumph for today! In 3 days I am shooting for 10:40 on my mile. I will condition myself for 2 days doing a mix of jogging and walking to build more stamina. Thank you for everyone who reads my blogs and loves me enough to give supporting and helpful comments. IM TRYIN SO HARD! 

Its been almost 6 years! But I went to the track at my old highschool today and said hello again to it. Itwas 95 degrees at 6:18 in the evening. I had intentions in the beginning were to just walk and jog. But when I got there… THAT TRACK DID NOT INTIMIDATE ME AT ALL! I took my video camera, set it on the highest bleacher, stretched, and hit record. I ran 3 1/2 laps on the outside path whick equaled one mile! I figured I would play a trick on my body and make it think it was getting away with only running 3 1/2 laps instead of four. But amazingly, like Kerstin said it would be, my throat did not constrict, and my muscles did not explode. I felt my muscles go numb and run out of oxygen by the 2nd lap, but once I could not feel my legs anymore, I could actually run faster. I used to run a mile in 8:51. Now I ran a mile in a bit over 10 minutes… I want to get under 8:51 in one or two months max. I do not think it would be too difficult to cut one minute off a slow running pace.

I was so proud of myself, though! I was starting to make excuses in my mind as I ran, but it never came into my mind that I should stop. And then when I got very exhausted, I screamed at myself “You are too young to not run one freakin’ mile, Julee! RUN!” 

And on the last lap, I pushed even harder.

Strangely, I have had no desire to sabatoge my workouts with bad food. I used to work out, then my mind would go into rebellion and want to eat every bad thing I could find. But not anymore now that I have BS. I tried to eat a chicken caesar salad about one hour after I ran. But I could barely stomach 10 bites. My stomach and my body did not want much. Trust me, I am not starving myself. I just wasn’t hungry.

The fire works here in Twin Falls, Idaho were pretty cool… my 2 1/2 yr old girl was in a trance by them. And I love the ones that look like a weeping willow tree when they explode. What is everyone elses favorite firework?

Well, all I gotta say is this- I do not feel so darn needy now that I have found strength within myself to run one mile my 6th day into my lifestyle change. I feel like a leader rather than a follower. It is a good day… or should I say night now. Goodnight buddies

Okay so I have been feeling a bit needy lately. I feel like I cannot share my happiness with anyone without them laughing at me. Maybe they would have a more positive reaction of I was very overweight. But I am pretty normal, and when I tell people about my new found happiness on this site, they laugh at me. maybe because they do not think i should be trying to lose weight and that I am just fine. i hate that!

I have not yet told my husband that I am doing this lifestyle change. He is a long-haul truck driver and is gone all the time. In the course of 2 weeks, he is home maybe 4 days scattered here and there. he was raised only eating meat, potatoes, pork and beans, ice cream and a few other select things that are not that good for you. He does not eat a lot… he only eats once a day. And at that, he does not eat huge quantities. But there is nothing in his diet that is healthy. (Besides the meat). So when I want to go jog or walk with one of our dogs, he lets me but he kinda has the remarkes that I am silly for doing it. He is the most wonderful man I have ever met… hes so nice to me and cares about me a lot… but he does not have the push that Chellybone’s husband has. Justyn does not get me off the coutch to go swim or go play softball… he doesn’t want to do anything with me like that when he is home. DONT GET ME WRONG!!!  He is such a hard worker, and if there is any hard labor that I need him to to like put siding on the HUGE 2 level dogouse we have, he never hesitates. And he works his butt off until it is done. He puts the heavy air-conditioners in no problem… and he will flip the axils on our trailer that takes 8 hours to do without a grumble.

But he just does not like to get out and excersize or have fun like what I do. I feel trapped. I feel like I have no one to go to. And I kinda feel sad because I haven’t gotton any comments on my blogs lately… and I need so much support because I lack the friends or the husband’s support when I need it most. I have only been a member less than a week, but I need help again. Anyone! :) 

I suppose telling anyone about my success is good.

I went to the college this morning and jogged and walked for about 1/2 hour. Everyone keeps telling me-baby steps! I am crawling along. I have no problem getting up in the morning and going to a new place every day. I think I will start out with doing 5 days in a row of leaving the house with a dog (I have 5), and my kid, and going somewhere new to push myself.

When I got to the college, I stretched and walked fast for a bit like I was instructed to do from my buddies. The, I jogged for a bit less than a 1/4 mile. I did not go so hard that my throat constricted. i ran until I could set a distance in the path that i could walk. When I reached that milestone, I then walked briskley as my dog looked up at me wondering why my jiggeley butt wasn’t running with him anymore.  My  to run too much, but I remembered the advice of Kerstina who just told me that the more I go at it and push myself, the easier it will be. My throat won’t constrict as much, and my jogging will get better. So when i saw a point I wanted to stop jogging at, I got to that milestone, and then I found another milestone. I kept jogging to that one, then the next one, and the last thing I could keep jogging to was my car. So I didn’t quit. i reached it nearly dead, and walked in circles until my breathing and heartbeat simmered down. I am doing it… I just want to look back on this in a couple of months and see how farI have come. I want to stick to something more than a couple days. Tomorrow, i plan on going to the track at my old highschool  and jogging one lap, walking one lap, jogging one lap, and finally walking one lap. That would be one mile. I remember having to run a full mile in P.E. in highschool 5 years ago. It was mandatory. And I did it in 8:45.  I was so proud of myself! I would love to reach that again……make me feel like a young whipper-snapper once more! 

get up out of bed at 7 and go to the college in my town where I spent countless hours earning credits for over 2 1/2 years… and lose some fat storage! Yay! I am making a better me with all of you! Does anyone think that you are the only normal person you know? I sometimes feel like that. Not that I am worse or better than everyone else, but I just don’t feel as crazy as some people. hehe I love everyone. There aint a person in this world i hate. And that feels good.

Today I came out to my neighbor, and really close friend, about buddyslim, and I showed her all of the love and support I was getting from my new friends who want to help me. She kind of smiles, and then told me I was crazy for having my stranger friends on the internet… she was silly and nice about it, but it made me feel kind of sad, and make me not want to share my joy with my other friends. I wont let it hurt me too much, but she wasn’t real thrilled. She is big big herself, and has 5 kids (1 more on the way), so her life is a whirl-wind of busy and clutter. I wanted her to be happy, and maybe some of the fun I was having on here would rubby-off-on-her. But nope. I dont mind. At least I have buddyslim!