motivatejulee

I think today was good but uneventful, I suppose. My daughter peed the bed in the night, which I can’t blame her because she’s only 3 and potty trained, but not at night, so we are working on that. This morning I was so tired, and my husband got up at 10:30 because it was his day off. I had a good early breakfast of oatmeal and applesauce but when I made a late breakfast for my husband, I was hungry so I had 2 pieces of whole-wheat French toast with one small sausage link and syrup….quite proud of myself there because the old me would have had 4 pieces plus 3 sausages! Victory there! Lunch was good; I had brown rice with asparagus and my pasta ragu cream cheese spinach and chicken leftover dish from 2 nights ago. Healthy in moderation, which is what I did. I had a super small peach and watermelon for a snack, and then dinner was a letdown and put me out for the rest of the night. I have been making such good meals, and this one was far from. I had bought a package of bottom round pre-sliced roast, and when I put it in the crock-pot with potatoes, carrots and onions, it looked good. But the meat was sooooo tough when it was ready. Not because it was over or under-cooked, but because it wasn’t marbled with enough fat. I know it was better to eat less marbled meat, but this just tasted nasty to me and I am now full but not satisfied, if that makes any sense. So I just ate a banana and I feel a bit better. Life isn’t all about food and I don’t want my life to revolve around obsessing over what to eat, so I am moving on. I am not sure how many calories I ate today, but I tried my bestest to eat well. Darn the pre-sliced roast!!!! Any help or advice on anything, like always, is needed, so please comment me please!

Well today went nice and I am surprised to say, I cannot believe that I have been controlling my eating so easily that I wish I would have started sooner! It is so nice to listen to my stomach, instead of listening to the “im bored, maybe we should eat” voice in my head. I got up this morning and ate after I nursed my baby. I had such a nice, filling breakfast instead of a bowl of crappy cereal or a pb n j. I had home-made oatmeal, with 1.2 cup peaches, ¼ cup apple sauce, ¼ cup raisins, and I was so satisfied it SHOCKED ME SHOCKED ME SHOCKED ME! I had a bit of cream cheese with 1 cup strawberries for a snack, 1 pear and 1 plum a few hours later, and while I was visiting my mom and sister, I at 1 ½ sandwiches of white bread with fat-free cheese and deli ham, with 2 orange slices. Snack was a few of my husband’s dinner finger steaks I made for him and ½ a butternut squash, and my dinner was good.  Salmon cakes with cauliflower, rice, bell pepper and milk.

I added up my calories and I was at 1600. Good but I shouldn’t be any lower.

Ah I am sorry I have to say everything I eat… Its kinda like I hold myself accountable for what I eat because I know I have to put it on here. It is 6:30 and I am happily full and not over-stuffed. Strange feeling hehe

My husband is home tonight, and he is watching TV while I write this so I should probably hurry up… he doesn’t know I am on buddyslim because I want to slowly surprise him on the new me. So tomorrow, my goal is to eat more veggies than fruit, and I haven’t decided on whether or not I will go to church. My husband will only be home til 4pm, then he’s back to trucking, and I miss him so much that I may spend the day with him. We will see. I am just a baby in the beginning of this journey to eating healthier and in moderation. I am not bent on losing weight right now because of the nursing and healing thing, but I am tackling the hardest part: food. Someday I will work getting from 165 to 145… but not yet. Have a great night and pray I have a good day tomorrow!!!!

Ok, well today has been great and I can tell why~ I did not eat when I wasn’t hungry! I was surprised to realize that my dinner from the night before of salmon, rice and squash lasted me all through the night and I wasn’t even slightly hungry until 8:30am! And even then, I wasn’t really starving. I nursed my baby and had made 3 packages of the instant oatmeal, blueberry flavored, and my daughter ate about 1/3… so I ate 2 packages. For a snack I had a plum, (which I read that it will help me produce the kind of milk that gives good dirty diapers J cuz my baby wasn’t having enough of them, along with eating things like brown rice, berries, watermelon, squash, etc…) For lunch, I had 2 ½ salmon cakes made from scratch with a plain yogurt/ green apple topping, salad, avocado, and ranch. Snack between lunch and dinner was ½ a banana, 2 small bank suckers (which I ate before realizing I shouldn’t have), and 1 strawberry. Dinner was smart and delicious, even though I ate early, cuz it’s only 4:40pm. I had that yogurt sauce with cauliflower, pasta with Ragu and cream cheese and spinach and chicken, and a glass of milk. I was very conscious of my portions and sizes. So here is how the calories broke down:

• 2 instant blueberry oatmeal packets with water 277 cal.
• 1 small plum 37 cal.
• 2 ½ salmon cakes w/ yogurt topping 300 cal.
• 2 c. salad mix 30 cal.
• ½ avocado 120 cal.
• 2 tsp. Ranch 76 cal.
• ½ banana 31 cal.
• 2 small suckers 50 cal.
• 1 strawberry 10 cal.
• 2 c. cauliflower 25 cal.
• 4 oz. Pasta w/ 1/3 c. Ragu/cream cheese, spinach, & chicken 400 cal.
• 8 oz. Milk 160 cal.

That is a total of a bit over 1500 calories consumed… I need to aim between 1500 and 2000 because nursing demands 300-500 more calories. Gosh I am so proud of myself. I might be a bit off on the calculations, but this is the first time I have ever counted these things in my life. I turned down more salmon cakes, 2 kit-kats and gorging on fruit all day, and I am happy. If I was not watching what I eat, I would have eaten 2 more salmon cakes, 3 more fruits (which I know is good for me but in moderation), and who knows what else. What a day! Yesss! And I am not jeopardizing my milk supply. That is what scared me the most. Well, I hope tomorrow is just as wonderful, and I hope you have a good day and night too!

Day 1- Where to begin? I have been a member of BS since July, but fell off the wagon when I got pregnant in August. I just had my sweet little baby boy almost 4 weeks ago at home, I have a 3 year old daughter, and I am almost healed and ready to have a better lifestyle change. I am going to be 24 next month, so no is as good of time as ever to get it in gear!

Okay, so I know I cant work out until I am fully healed, but at least I can eat better and begin the journey here. Today, I had oatmeal for breakfast about 8am, and then my dad came over and asked me to make pancakes at 11am… I was not hungry. But I ate 3 pankakes anyway, with strawberries and syrup. Ugh. I didn’t have any lunch because I wasnt hungry, and my mom (who is on weightwatchers), came over and gave me some healthy eating pointers. I had some fresh cauliflower about 4, and made a wonderful dinner for me and my daughter. (My husband is a long-haul truck driver, so it’s just usually me and my girl). I had fresh salmon my dad just caught and gave to me, about 8 oz., so I broiled that with just a little butter, salt, pepper, olive oil, and lemon, and I made brown wild rice from bulk, ate about 1/2 cup, and 3/4 of half of a butternut squash. My daughter ate 2 oz. of the salmon, so I ate only 6 oz. and she ate the 1/4 of the half of the sauash.

So that was my dinner… and the goal I made myself stick to was to eat until I felt full. It was hard, because I always eat wayyyyyyyyyyy past full. It is a better feeling to stop the moment I feel full, rather than gorging to reach that bloated feeling. I am not really big, I could just do to lose some blubbage on my thighs and stomach. I always buy healthy things, but eating them in the right portions and not eating too much is the kicker. So, I have begun today, and I know I cannot add any excersizing blog in here for a while, but if I stay on track with my eating, excersoze will follow. And in about a year and a half, when I am done nursing my baby, I plan to join weightwatchers simply to learn how to always make healthy choices. Please any support or advice is much needed!

Okay so it has been 4 months since I have made a blog or post or anything. I suppose I have been avoiding BuddySlim because I did not want to commit to excersizing again. not like it is hard to commit, but I suppose we all have a bit of lazy in ourselves all the time. So after I stopped using BS in July, I got pregnant in August and I have been feeling like crap up until now. The baby has been kicking my butt. I cant eat much of anything without it making me sick. I have a tummy that is growing now, being 14 weeks pregnant. I tried to use our new eliptical machine 3 times a week when I first found out I was pregnant, but I got so tired of dragging out the thing because it is so heavy and when I get on it, the darn thing squeaks like it is dying! Maybe thats why we got it for 300 instead of the regular 899.

It wakes my daughter up when I work out while she naps. Crap!!! What should I do???  I can see myself and my thighs and waist starting to expand a little… not in a good way… and I don;t like where that is headed. Someone please give me advice. I do so need this site again to help me. All my old BS friends! Help!!! New ones too!!!

I do nothing but run… or should I say jog. I seem to think that if I run, I have my workout for the day. But what does jogging do? It works the few muscles in your legs. It does not stretch your tendons… it does not lengthen your muscles… it does not work your arms. I am not bashing on running, but it shouldn’t be the only thing I do.

Soooo…. I am going to but a Turbo Jam dvd. My buddyblogger Lisa does it, and she sweard by it. She is new too, but if she can do it just starting out, then I can do it almost 3 weeks into my journey.

Today, Yes, I ran.  I ran mymile in 10:14! YAYAYAYAYAYYY! I have shaved almost 40 to 50 seconds in 3 weeks! I would love to run a mile in under 9 minutes by the end of fall… so when winter begins, I have a grip on myself and what I am capable of. Winter can do so much wonderful things, but also bad things. You could put the pounds on, eat all the time because it is cold outside… But one could also go on nice winter walks or jogs without the sunshine beating down on ya.

My money is tight right now. But I will find the extra cash flow to buy it and work out in a different way when little miss Alee takes her nap.

My father-in-law whatched my baby while I ran. But I went at 9:40. TOOO HOT!

Thats all I gotta say, if anyone cares to hear. Get running out of my head so much! Help me!

Today I went running at 8:41 am. I wanted to use an actual watch so I could have a second hand. My mom let me borrow hers, since I went to her house for a while to visit and watch my niece.

I began running with the sun to my back. I did great! On my way back finishing up my mile, I could tell I only had about a 1/4 mile left. I tried to push myself and run harder… bad idea!!! The moment I gained pace and got a bit faster, a piercing pain grabbed under my rib, and made me stop. I was only 3 blocks from finishing my mile, but it made me bummed. The pain was so bad, I could barely breathe.

I tried to remember Kerstin’s advice and not push myself harder than I can go, because it will hurt me, and my body knows what it can and cannot do. But I tried to motivate myself, and it backfired. I was told by my friend who is a real runner at heart, that I need to stretch my abs before I run. Was it my abs or my diaphragm? I think it was my diaphragm… no muscles in my abs hurt.

The lunges I did 2 days ago are finally wearing off and the pain is trying to subside. It is intense but good! And lunges are not too hard to do.

Now I have incorporated jogging, lunges, and some deep stretching into my lifestyle change, along with eating healthier. It is all about baby steps!

Sooooo…. it has been 3 days since I have ran or intentionally worked out. I have mowed with a puch mower the day after I ran… finished my huge rock garden project the next day…. and served a huge party at my job in an italial resturaunt yesterday that KICKED MY BUTT. And yesterday I worked more on my rock garden. I can defilately feel it today in my muscles and legs.

I have not ran for a few days, or worked out a lot, because I have been frustrated that I have no one to watch my 2 year old that is responsible. BUT I am forever taking Chelley’s advice, and I am going to incorporate my toddler onto my workouts.

Today while the baby was asleep and there was a responsible set of eyes watching over her, I just got on a pair of running shorts and grabbed a bottle of water and got my sheepdog Annie, and went running! Or jogging, or walgging (walking/running because I am not that fast towards the last 1/4 mile and it seems like I was running about as fast as I could walk.) I ran the first 1/4 mile great! Then the second 1/4 mile was hard. BUT!!! The third 1/4 mile was a second wind for me and I enjoyed it! But the last 1/4 mile was hard =  NOT because I was out of breath or because my muscles felt fatigued… but because I begin to get frustrated that I am not a lot faster than the time before. I had my phone turned on to STOPWATCH, and when I came around the corner and only had 1/4 mile to go, i think I bumped the end button on my phone. I looked at it at 3/4 of a like, and i was at 8:30… that is when I think i hit the off button

After I finished the last 1/4 mile by pushing myself very hard & making my strides longer and kicking up my feet towards my tooshie… I looked at my phone when I was done. NO TIME! PHONE GOT SHUT OFF! But I believe I made better time.

Here is a great story though! Last time I ran and blogged about how I was only three seconds quicker… I forgot that I had hit the button on the stopwatch to begin timing, but I took exactly 10 seconds to cross the street and put the phone in my bra before I started running. I told myself not to forget to take off 10 seconds from my running time. BUT I FORGOT! Soooo I did run my mile 13 seconds better! YESSSS!

So I think iran this mile about the same, maybe 2 seconds better So if I had to guess, I ran it in 10:38 ????  When I got home, I hovvvvvered infront of the air conditioner in my bra and panties cuz it was so hot outside! 95 I think.

Annie is one of the best running dogs I have. Maybe better than Harley. Yep, I got 5 dogs. All can go with me, But I cant run with my old jack russel/chiwwwawa cross. He would die.

I cooled off and went to the front yard and did lunges all the way to the back dogrun. That is 100 feet or a bit more. I did it slow without cheating.

Well, I am going to record now my inches I have lost! It isnt huge, but its great for me!

Thighs were 24”.    Now: 23 1/2

Stomach was 36”.   Now: 35 1/2

 Is 1/2 an inch something to be excited about???  I want to be! Well, I have to go shower and get ready to work on my feet for 7 hours serving! I am so happy!

Dressing room mirrors are not very kind I have noticed. I went to the store today to get some new running shorts, and when I was trying on the shorts, the mirror was showing me my whole body! I do not have a whole mirror in my house, so the dressing room mirrors do not lie. But the reflection was a bit better because I knew I was doing something on changing myself.

Yesterday, I went on a trip to the college with my friend, Emily. She does a spinning class at the college here in my city. I asked her to go running with me, but she said she does not run. It wasnt a cop out, believe it or not. When I got her to run with me, she couldn’t do it well atall. And not because she is big or anything… she is just not built to jog or run. Her body is just not built for running! I Went to a spinning class with her last monday, and she kicked butt at it, but when I asked her to run, she could do it for 20 seconds and it was over. Her strength does not lie in that kind of motion. I learned that not all people can jog. I suppose I just wanted to let someone know that

Today I was going to jog at 8 am with my friend, Kami. But she wanted to sleep in so I said I would wait until 7 pm tonight to go jogging. But when it came time to go, she couldn’t. So instead of just putting it off until tomorrow, I hopped in my car and drove a 1/2 mile away from my house and a 1/2 mile back. So i knew exactly how far I could run to equal one mile back to my house. It was easy for me to run! But I could only knock off 3 seconds from my time. 10:52. I am going to take kahmaperrys advice and take a light jog/ walk to warm up before I do my mile run. I want better results and I believe this will give me a better time.

As for my diet, I need to go shopping! Ahhhh! I need groceries and I hate going to the grocery store because I spend money that I could use to pay bills or buy dog food I have all my bills paid, but I seem to put myself last in everything. Groceries should be one of the first things I buy, but it always becomes the last. Ah screw it! I am going to the grocery store tomorrow and load up on the good healthy stuff. I wish I had some amazing thing to say, but I guess the only amazing thing I have to say is this: I AM 3 SECONDS QUICKER!

So I went running today, despite aunt flo so rudely visiting me the day before. But as I am trying not to do, she was not going to be my excuse on why I could not run or work out. So this morning, I made it to the track at 9 am, and stretched, then I had my little 13 year old friend, Brittany, start the stopwatch on my phone when I began running. It was early, and I did not seem to have the momentum I had at 6 pm on july 4th. I believe it was because I had been going all day long and I was fully awake.

Wellp… I did it! I ran another mile! AND MY THROAT DID NOT CONSTRICT AT ALL! Kerstina is sooo right about that. I seemed to think it would always be impossible to breathe. Nope!

The only thing that nearly killed me was on my last lap, under my right lung was on fire! It happens most of the time when I run, but not like this…    My sister told me it was because I did not have enough water in my system. But I was drinking a lot of water… so what is it? Does anyone know? It hurt so bad that I could not push myself hard the last lap like I did the first time. My time this second try was 10:55 exactly. Last time it was a bit over 11 minutes. Slow going but baby steps is the only way to go, I have learned from you guys. Chelley says “We did not put this weight on overnight… it won’t come off overnight either.” So I cannot expect my time to go from 11 minutes to 8 minutes in 3 days. Shaving a couple seconds off one mile is better than nothing!

My husband came home on Sunday night, and yesterday, I took Chelley’s advice again, and approached him in a nice manner. I said “I would love to go on a walk with you and our boys (by boys I mean our three  dogs out back in the huuuuuge dogrun… 2 border collies and a chocolate lab we raised from pups). Maybe we can walk in the evening so it wont be sooo hot. Wanna go?”   He said “yeah, I guess so.”  YAYYYY!

So 6:30 rolled around and it was cool, so I asked him to go get the leashes, and he got all three dogs, Rowdie  Bongo  and Harley, and we got our little girl, Alee, in her stroller, and we walked down to the animal shelter at the end of the road, then back. It was no huge walk, maybe a 1/2 mile total, but we had a good time!   

And believe it or not, MY HUSBAND RAN ALL THE WAY BACK! He ran with Harley and Rowdie, our two fast border collies. I have never seen him run! And he was good! I hope everyone was happy to hear this… because of my blog a couple days ago about being needy and how my man never wants to go work out… he did! Oh boy he did! Praise God!

Well, there is my triumph for today! In 3 days I am shooting for 10:40 on my mile. I will condition myself for 2 days doing a mix of jogging and walking to build more stamina. Thank you for everyone who reads my blogs and loves me enough to give supporting and helpful comments. IM TRYIN SO HARD!